I fucking hate my life. Oh right, I think I've said that before, no?

Fucking dad. He should rot in hell.

All I want to was to join this school-related art festival that is hosted in another country. 

But NOOOO. 

He won't fucking let me. and he doesn't he have a goddamn legitimate reason.

Oh wait, is this one legitimate? :

Dad: No

Me: What? Why?

Dad: You don't have time.

Me: (thinking wtf) Why wouldn't I have time? 0_0

Dad: Because you've stayed up late this past week to do your homework.

Me: =='' How does that prove that I wont' be free all the way in Feb/March?

Dad: I said you can't go, so you can't go!

Oh YEAH, real legitimate huh?

So I ask my mom (who supports me to go) and she starts nagging my dad.

My dad's second excuse: It's too expensive.

HELL YEAH IT IS.

But WHAT THE FUCKING HELL?

This store, "Twist" (department store that sells friggin expensive brands like Prada, MiuMiu, Vivienne Westwood, etc...) is on sale now (which is still extravagantly expensive) and he's practically stocking up on everything.

All he has to do is buy one less pair of shoes and I can be on my way to Kuala Lumpur.

Plus, me going to this festival isn't for like "fun."

It's meant to be good experience and all the good stuff that you can name.

He makes it sound like I just wanna go to get out of here.

And guess what else happened yesterday?

I fucking failed my piano exam.

I mean, I tried REALLY hard but it's not my goddamn fault that god didn't give me any musical talent right?

I hate that my freaking dad only looks at my negative stuff.

Doesn't he realize that I got the fucking highest average on my report card?

That I improved so much in P.E. this year, when it's normally my worst subject. A subject that i usually fail like hell? I goddamn passed this year and even got higher than the course median by 1 fucking percent.

Oh, and this is really my first time failing any exam OR test i have EVER taken in my 14 years of life. Goddamn dad doesn't even notice that I passed all my other leveled piano exams, some with merit. Also passed theory exam with Merit. and Sax exam with merit. Plus, it's kinda fucking hard to pass a gr 8 piano exam especially when I'm jumping grades.

All he cares about is his superficiality. Prada, MiuMiu, MY ASS!

Who the fuck needs to own every pair of Prada shoes out there?

Every MiuMiu coat?

Every Louis Vutton bag ever made!?

I DONT THINK SO.

That inhuman beast should rot in hell.

I hope he dies a terrible death.

 i can't believe it.

i just ruined myself.

i've let out way more information then i should have.

if they find out. i'm screwed.

they'll find out what i've been trying to hide from both worlds.

and my two worlds won't run in a harmonious tune. i swear.

OMG. hey guys!

haven't updated in a while cuz I was on a school trip all the way in Australia. Came back on Saturday.. but then I forgot my password until now...

So.. let's talk about my trip in Australia.

Basically, in the week long trip, I visited many places such as Brisbane, Tyalgum, Gold Coast, Byron Bay, Sydney... well we were driving in and out of Queensland and NSW. Eventually, when we were to fly home.. we had to stopover at Sydney but because of the many hour delay, we got to actually go out to visit the city.

Anyway, I would say that the trip was overall, pretty awesome except for one of the hikes. It was terrible cuz people were basically just rolling and slipping per second. It was muddy and disgusting. with leeches and bugs. And from this stupid hike, i broke my camera and cell phone ==. but then evenutally, my cell phone started working again. sadly, that isn't the case for my camera.

Enough about the trip though i guess. 

On sunday, it was hilarious.

My dad forgot my name =='

he wanted to talk to me about something and then he called my name wrong.

Family, huh? My ass.

I'm actually in class right now.. so i should get off now.

I have loads to do again this week. ARGH.//

Stupid art project that i haven't started on. And its like a HUGe project.

Due in 2 days ==' i'm not gonna finish

and a science test.

and history project. 

argh.

once i'm back from the trip, i have to return to stinkin old life.

Haven't posted in a few days... was way too busy.

well actually, i'm still terribly busy but just happens that im procrastinating :P

So..I guess i'll tell you guys how I've been since I last updated.

The past weekend was so crazy.

On saturday, I had my ABRSM piano exam which I swear I failed with probably only a 75/150.

The examiner was such an asshole. terribly mean!

He kept sighing while I was playing (I admit I wasn't playing my best, but that was because he was scaring me!) and even stopped me during one of my pieces. he was like..."Please stop. i don't want to hear anymore. It's just repeat" 0.0" gee. way to make me feel confident.

And well, most unbelievably I actually cried!

Of course, that was after the exam.

I was having lunch with the bitch (Ahem. I mean my mother) and tears just came out. I cried for like 20 mins nonstop. Unbelievable. even for myself.

Okay what else? Well, the rest of saturday was pretty awesome.

My twin friends came to sleepover at my home. We ate dinner at the mall near my home and that was pretty fantastic. (despite the fact that we had to wait in queue for more than an hour before we got seats) We went home, watched the Superhero Movie played wii and watched another movie. It was heaven compared to the terrible morning I had.

On sunday, my school had a school fair event and I had to volunteer with another friend to take care of one of those playing booths. One of the twins left and one of the twins came with me. Hence, me, my twin friend, and another friend were at the fair. We volunteered for about an hour, ate some pizza, hung around... and amazingly, despite my cursed life and most oftenly bad luck, I won this huge prize in a lucky draw.

Blahblahblah.. and then we got bored so us three and this guy we know (he just kinda stuck around with us at the fair and so we all ended up hanging together) all went to the twins' home.

We had loads of fun there.. I guess...at least for a while.

There was lots of laughter for the most part.

Things got boring eventually.

And then things took for a turn.

I got an upsetting call from a friend of mine. (in which i'm not gonna elaborate further here)

and soon.. I had to eat dinner with my parents.

that was goddamn horrible.

For some damn reason, my intestines started hurting like hell and my mom was totally fuggin drunk. We had a total blowoff at the high-end restaurant we were eating at, and it was i tell you, EMBARRASSING. I mean, all the ppl who work there KNOWS us. We've been eating there since I was like what... 6 years old? that's like 9 years! It's not like the first time we've argued in public there, or really any other place.. but it's just embarrassing considering I'm not a little kid anymore.

She started acting all bitchy (no surprise there, huh?)

I mean, wtf. Saturday afternoon, she was comforting me over the stupid piano exam that I obviously failed. And then, she started blowing me off saying that I was a friggin retard. Saying how I could've possibly failed. That she wasted so much of HER (!!!! it's not even her money, it's my dad's) money on me.. That if she had the opportunity when she was my age, she would have passed with flying colors. Oh yeah. Sure. Easy for her to say. All she has to do right now is scream at me about piano. 

Then things get worse as she talks about money.

it's always MONEY MONEY MONEY.

MONEY SHITMONEY.

What's up with her!!@!@!?

My dad gives her money on a monthly basis. And i can tell you, the amount is most definitely NOT SMALL.

BUT SHE STIL KEEPS COMPLAINING EVERY FUCKING DAY!

money this, money that.

UGH.

GIMME A BREAK

GIVE MY DAD A BREAK.

she started annoying me about how my friends didn't finish the yoghurt we bought with "her" money, that it was a waste of money. How even $10(HKD) was money. Oh sure.. like her going to "yum cha" (drink tea at chinese restaurant) for like a few hundred bucks a day isn't a waste of money ==. Yah, sounds like one small thing yeah? BUT SHE ANNOYED ME ABOUT THAT FOR LIKE 20 FUCKING MINUTES.

Your friends this.. your friends that.

The yoghurt was perfectly fine blah blah blah.

It hurts me how I lost $10 like that.

Then she started saying I owed her.

So i was like, "fine. you want me to pay you back!?"

and she was like "OF COURSE. YOU OWE ME."

so i fucking reached into my handbag and shoved a $10 bill into her hand.

Then, she crumpled the bill and shoved it onto the table, slamming her cup over it.

(and yes. i bet the whole restaurant was watching us by now.)

UGGGH

there's more to what happened.

but i can't type anymore.

right now.. the more i type, the more furious i get.

and i have to be calm to finish the shitload amount of homework i have.

buhbye.

I don't get it.

Why can't teachers see through the facades of them?

I have a facade too, and it's not like I want them to see through me..

But, she's just so unbearably not real.

God, life sucks.

OMG. I can't believe her!

She eavesdrops into my phone calls. URGH.

She actually picked up the other phone and started listening to my whole conversation.

Goddamn her !

Doesn't she know what PRIVACY is!?

Today hasn't been that bad a day...so far.

Had half a day of school cuz it was early dismissal.

But I have so much friggin homework!!

Argh. I bet I will have to stay up really late tonight :(